What soccer "side" should I join?!?

Okay, so I am 13 and having a hard time deciding! I was playing recreation league soccer and got picked up by a club team. Well I think I was pretty good because I was called the tank, never quit running, and had a good boot. The club owner REALLY liked me and put me on contract to where I didn't have to pay for anything (but I had to stay on the team).I was on that team for about 1 1/2 years and quit. I was running cross country but because of the huge budget cut they stopped doing it. Then I didn't play mid field and went to defense because I thought I was losing my running skills. Then my coach for the club was confusing me on how to kick the ball far so I lost my big boot. I am still pretty tough but not as much! New players were coming to the club and my coach would say things like, "You better try harder or else they will take your position."so he was very discouraging! I then quit that team and waited for recreational soccer to start up to see if I could get picked up again. Well it's been 2 months and yesterday the club owner wants me really bad to come back to the team! The thing is IDK because I think I will feel left out what should I do!? What if go back to rec and no one picks me up?! Please help!